Update on Me

My anxiety is getting the better of me, friends. It feels like it’s getting worse, and I can’t explain it. The furbabies are all healthy and happy (I hope!), I’m employed – still on a consulting contract until the end of April, but there is talk of an extension. And I have cut all U.S. news out of my diet. 

But yesterday, a personal project I’m working on took me to Windsor. Driving down the 401 seeing the exit signs for the bridge and tunnel to the U.S. sent my anxiety soaring. Just the thought of inadvertently crossing the border (which I was in no real danger of doing) was enough to have me digging through my purse for my meds while zooming down the highway. 

I’m on edge at work.  The job is really good, but it has its challenges. Do any of you MLI people remember Angry Rhonda?  She’s back. 

Even the cats have been getting on my last nerve. They’re not doing anything wrong – they’re just being cats!  That’s what I love about them!  But again, the slightest things set me off. 

My sister has suggested some alternative therapies for my anxiety. Traditional mental health services are essentially non-existent in this underserved community in which I live, but I think talk therapy is basically bullshit. It’s never worked for me. However, Ruth thinks I should try some energy-based practices.  I just Googled that, and saw that the Japanese practice Shinrin-yoku, or Forest Bathing, as an example. Not sure how I feel about that. Will I try some of her “woo-woo” stuff?  I don’t know. Stay tuned…